should i?

i broke my own rules last nite. yes, i should live my life. i should enjoy my life. i should be happy. i should feel happy. even without half of my heart.

tonight i overjoyd. yeah, people always act strangly (sometimes stupidly) to actract other people. but, after a very happy moment, my heart is filled with sadness. thats why i dont want to feel happy. because the pair of happiness is sadness.

its too cold out there. and now, i'm not feeling well.

written by me at 00.00, 22th aug 2010.

:-)